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Happiness is do-it-yourself
30 September 2010 @ 01:34 am
29 September 2010 @ 11:37 pm
I just back from vivo city, after having dinner with Laura at carl junior. We walked past carl junior last week and saw their lastest burger, we two were drooling away so decided to go back to try it out today. We went to find Joanna at toy'r'us but she wasn't working today :( so I accompanied my dear Laura to get something for her yet-to-born nephew. OMG those baby clothes looked damn adorable... and guess what we saw baby haivannas! AHHHHHH almost have an impulse to get one.
I guess I really need to apologize to my friends again for making damn worry but no worries I am fine now. I came to realize something that despite everything, I always still have feelings for Jason. I went through hell when we broke up... I didn't know what to do. Everyone was worry, no one have seen me so sad and distracted before. Imagine falling from the sky without anything to catch you below. It was bad, very bad. I was hoping badly that he will hold on to me and not let me go. He said he didn't want to hurt me anymore, that's why he choose to let go but he hurt me even more when he insisted in pushing me away. After being with someone for 2 years and meeting him almost everyday, I thought he will be the one that I will end marrying to. I guess it was my fault for being super stubborn at the start of the relationship... and all those fights we ended up having. Then he decided he had enough and he changed... became hot temper and started to care little about my feeling. I think I got no one to blame but myself.
I thought being with someone new can really make me forget about Jason but I guess I was wrong and I can be happy again. But the fact is the things he do and said still affect me alot. When I saw him this Sunday to take back my things and he brought the puzzle down my heart sank. I so hoped he didn't return me that puzzle because all I want was only the photo dairy because mummy was pissed that I left it with him. When he threw the puzzle on the blog, I felt the pain again.
All the things he gave me... are still at their original place. Ever since our breakup, I never once keep anything away. Our photo, his cards to me, valentine day bouquet, necklace, watch...
I am a fool to think that I can just move on and be with someone new... but I made a mistake. I'm sorry. I broke your heart and broke mine at the same time:(
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restless28 September 2010 @ 04:12 pm
Didn't managed to sleep much last night, maybe an hour or so.
And I feeling super exhausted now after an entire night of brain cell killing.
A truckload of tears just couldn't stop my heart from bleeding...
I expected it to be great night with Hayley and friends for her farewell, sorry for ruining the singing session. Managed to meet up with Dwayne and Saturday for a while. Actual plan was to join them for their singing session but I wasn't really in the mood for anything so I ended up taking a long walk before heading home.
I feel like crap now. I guess I am just being silly to think my life would be back to normal and I could be happy again. I hate my current life, it's like a roller coaster that can't stop and it's draining all my energy away from me. But thanks god, my friends are always there for me through thick and thin. This year have been a bad year, I got to learn everything through the hard way. Always think turning 21 will be turn out to be a great year but now months before I reached that age which I am supposed to celebrate, everything got screw up! I feel like getting away for the time being, cheer myself up again:(
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disappointed27 September 2010 @ 10:38 am
I changed my livejournal layout again, thrice time in the past 2 weeks.
Late for work today because I decided to take the bus instead (guess I make a wrong decision). Not already in good mood this morning, sigh. I guess I am having monday blues.
(updated)
I guess some asshole is already trying to ruin my day but guess what try harder. If you are unhappy that I have moved on and found someone better, then you should get a life. Stop your sarcastic remarks... and please grow up!
Just can't wait to see all my friends tonight, miss them alot! Haven meet some of them for ages already :)
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bored27 September 2010 @ 01:32 am
Weekend was great but time just flies by too fast and dear is back in camp now sleeping away (HAHAHAS, MY MR PIGGY). I headed to his crib after having beancurd with his family last night to sleep over and we two only woke up around 1plus am this morning.
He went to have lunch with his friends at school (sorry for not joining you) while I went to get my stuffs back from Jason. He ended up ruining my day! Asked me to go down all the way to his house area to get my stuffs then threw the puzzle I did for him for our one year anniversary on the ground. WTF I no longer deserve all these shit from him anymore. Yes I am dating someone now... and I don't think I am doing anything wrong because we only get together after I broke up with you. Rahhhhhhhhhh I think I am blind to have ever fall in love with you.
Okay, enough of my complains. Dear came to fetch me and we headed back to his crib. Ice cream chef an hour before he booked in! Thanks for the wonderful weekend. Tmr is going to be Hayley's farewell & ____________ celebration at amk's kbox. Going to sleep now, night ^^
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accomplished26 September 2010 @ 01:32 am
Today was a blast! Only went home 2pm this afternoon after a night with dear at marina square's prize stage. Omg we got a hard time going home at 3plus am, thanks to the f1 track.
Dear and I went back to marina square again with his sis and bf for prize stage. Mr curry for dinner before heading down to kallang leisure for movie with his family. Enjoyed the movie alot! Love action movies:)
Now having beancurd with them! I am tired!
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24 September 2010 @ 01:41 am
peektures from my pts, Lynette's 21st celebration at Tanjong Beach Club. I miss the beach but most of all, I miss her!It's finally Friday! That means dear is booking out in a few hours time. Cant wait to see him... two weeks is just too long. Formula one is in town for the weekend! Really wanted to get tickets for the event and F1 rock but sadly, I am super broke now:( Nevermind, there's always next year!
Should be heading to marina square again for the weekend for prize stage ^^ and maybe movies- the shock labyrinth: house of horrors & devils.
I have been skipping outings with friends these past two days because I am dead tired and all I want to do is cuddle in my sofa & slack for the night. But dear never fail to give me a call every night before he fall asleep:) thanks for making my day. Rahhhhhh... next Monday is going to be Hayley's farewell at amk kbox, can't wait.
Really wish everything will work out this time round
because I don't think I can take another heart break again.
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bouncy23 September 2010 @ 12:13 am
Hong Kong have been nothing but amazing and I definitely enjoyed my time there alot! From the yummilious food to beautiful scenery to fun attractions and lastly to SHOPPING! I overspent about $500 just on shopping but I bought my dresses, accessories, shoes and bags. Thank you mummy for making this holiday because it was a last minute thing that you decided to come along!
The holiday will not be complete if not for my friends... despite not planning the holiday together, it was pure coincidental that we went to Hong Kong on the same day. They make my nights at Hong Kong happening- lan kwai fong and ktv pub.
Can't wait to go back to Hong Kong again!
just another 24 hours or so...
The holiday will not be complete if not for my friends... despite not planning the holiday together, it was pure coincidental that we went to Hong Kong on the same day. They make my nights at Hong Kong happening- lan kwai fong and ktv pub.
Can't wait to go back to Hong Kong again!
just another 24 hours or so...
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cheerful22 September 2010 @ 02:00 pm
Somehow, I really wish work didn't start today because I am pretty much still in a holiday mood. Work have been lack of fun lately as most of my friends have left the company... Rachy, Benny, Clement, Muyang, Weijian, Shirlynn, Joanna etc. I really miss the lunches and dinners we had together, the k box session we planned and those joyous outings. Meet up soon k!
Sorry Rachy & Clement for not being able to join you at uss yesterday as I was still at hong kong, awaiting for my plane to fly off! I guess we shall plan another uss trip again... I had a great time when I was there the last time so anticipating for the next trip.
Since I am back from hkg, it's time for my pts and I to plan for our bintan holiday next month! Lynette and I will be hitting the beach for our usual tanning routine and maybe go for some drinks at night. I seriously can't wait to be out of Singapore again! Besides that, I am going to start to plan for my holiday trips... thinking of going to Bangkok this December for shopping, eating and sightseeing (the sunflower field will be blooming during that period ^^). Followed by Macau, Shanghai & Beijing, Bali, Taiwan, Seoul, New Zealand and Aussie. I shall start saving up some cash soon... and this time round, I will try my best to keep the travelling dates on weekdays because I am saving up my weekends for ...
No plan for tonight, guess I will just hit home early to rest tonight
Sorry Rachy & Clement for not being able to join you at uss yesterday as I was still at hong kong, awaiting for my plane to fly off! I guess we shall plan another uss trip again... I had a great time when I was there the last time so anticipating for the next trip.
Since I am back from hkg, it's time for my pts and I to plan for our bintan holiday next month! Lynette and I will be hitting the beach for our usual tanning routine and maybe go for some drinks at night. I seriously can't wait to be out of Singapore again! Besides that, I am going to start to plan for my holiday trips... thinking of going to Bangkok this December for shopping, eating and sightseeing (the sunflower field will be blooming during that period ^^). Followed by Macau, Shanghai & Beijing, Bali, Taiwan, Seoul, New Zealand and Aussie. I shall start saving up some cash soon... and this time round, I will try my best to keep the travelling dates on weekdays because I am saving up my weekends for ...
No plan for tonight, guess I will just hit home early to rest tonight
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excited
excited22 September 2010 @ 01:30 am
I am finally back from my 8 days hong kong holiday and it's a pity that I have to go back to work tomorrow:(
The flight back to Singapore was delayed for almost 3 hours and we have to wait in the plane for them to fix the problem, wtf waste my time. These 8 days have been great. I did so much shopping that I overspent by S$500... boohoo I need to jia you on saving up for next month bintan holiday
Day 1, we went to avenue of stars and we managed to catch the light display
Day 2, was the peak and madame tussade. Managed to snap alot of photos with our wax idols... andy lau, david beckham, madonna etc.
Day 3, jade market to get mummy's jades, more shopping and then dinner at the modern toilet restaurant
Day 4, DISNEYLAND & halloween parade
Day 5, ngong ping cable car, giant buddha and factory outlet. Then I hit to Lan Kwai Fong to drink with boon & friends... chocolate bar & lost
Day 6, OCEAN PARK and ktv pub with the usual clique
Day 7, more shopping!
Day 8, shopping at airport and home sweet home :)
peektures will be up soon, good night
3 more days to love
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